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Happy First Birthday!



One year. I have been reflecting on it for a few weeks now. He and I have changed so much. My arms don’t recognize how much he’s grown, having found their strength in his care. Not until I hold a small baby do I realize how much he has grown.



As I rocked him to sleep on his last night before he is one, I couldn’t help but reflect on all of our changes, and ponder our changes to come. While it has been a joy to watch my tiny, helpless baby turn into a toddler with preferences and desires, what I find more amazing is the complete change an adult can go through. I have found deep within me patience I did not know I had, love that can consume me, and a fierce amount of protection that scares me.
Everyday my love for this little boy grows, and I look forward to seeing its strength in each new year of his life.
Sweet sweet Soren, you make me a better person and I am so lucky to be your mama!

A photo of him today. A typical site: hanging out the window and finding the smallest bits.

A Photo A Day - Tips

Let me start this off by saying I am not a professional photographer. I use a Canon Digital REbel XTi and a speedlite external flash. I do love photography, so I have taught myself this and that about it, and have taken some photos for people, but I don't consider myself professional by any means.

On December 31, I decided I would take a photo of Soren everyday for 1 year. I missed the first two days by accident, but have managed to do it everyday since. It's a big undertaking, but now it's part of our daily routine. It has been so fun, and Daniel and I already love going through the photos from January and seeing how different Soren looks.

Usually I post only photos that look good, but I want you to see that I take a lot of photos each day and different things can go wrong. Above are photos of Samson walking through the frame. Some days he just stands in front of the camera to by annoyance. If Samson isn't walking into the frame, then he is causing distraction. Soren LOVES watching Samson, so I have hundreds of profile photos of Soren.
  
 Some days Soren cries and we have to go through multiple attempts to photograph him. Other times he just seems to have lost his ability to sit up, or he blinks during photos and ends up looking drunk. There has been spit up and drool, and the biggest pimple ever (big for an adult, humongous for a baby). There has been bad lighting, and blurry photos.

After time you get your stride, you learn to laugh at the drunken looking faces and may even include them in your final album. It is rewarding and I know it will be worth it at the end of the year when I have a documentation of the year Soren changes the most.

Here are some thoughts on doing your own album:

1. Have a plan.
December 31 I decided that I would get him at his different stages. While he couldn't sit, I would lay him down for a photo. Now that he sits, I take photos of him that way. When he's crawling, I'll include some photos of him crawling by.
I also wanted to keep the background consistent as long as photos were from home. This way background doesn't distract from the face.

2. Don't worry about sticking to the plan.
I know. What's the point in having a plan? It's like having a baby. Before they are here there are things you want to do, but then you meet your baby and they don't want to do those things. You may get into the photo a day and find what's not working. It's alright to change.

3. Don't over do it.
I thought it would be cool to have special things to signify holidays, when he's hit a new month and document each milestone (those that can't be photographed). I knew this would be too much for me, and I wouldn't succeed. Since I am a designer, I plan on going through the album and writing on different photos to signify a new month of life, a birthday and major holidays.

4. Have a fun song to sing or a toy to distract.
When Soren was a couple of months old Taylor Swift's song "I Knew You Were Trouble" was on ALL OF THE TIME. It was stuck in my head. I'd sing it to him while changing diapers, and he started smiling at it. He recognizes the song and smiles at it every time, so I sing it to him everytime we're taking photos. Keep your distraction consistent, the familiarity helps them know what is going on.

5. Don't worry about having a smile in every photo.
When I am choosing the photo for each day, I try to get a variety of facial expressions. I want to remember all of it!

6. Keep up with your photos.
Every two weeks or so I upload photos onto my computer. I choose a photo that I like from each day and edit it. It is then saved with the date as the file name. You don't want to be overwhelmed with hundreds of photos at the end of the year; it's likely you would never get your album finished if you had a flood of photos to go through.

7. Decide how you are going to display the photos before you start.
This may determine how you handle your photography. You can buy an album and slide photos in there. You can go to a somewhere such a Blurb to print a book (they provide templates so you don't have to worry about the design).

And some days you get such sweet photos that you might want to print in a large size.



A Change in Heart


Soren has been a sweet boy lately, making decisions to cuddle even when he's not tired, to kiss and to give admiring smiles. I can honestly say that I have never wanted him to stay a tiny baby, but now, now I want him to stay in this stage a little longer.

I think of Soren the preteen who is embarrassed by his mom and wants some space, and teenage Soren who is gaining his independence and preparing to leave our home. And worst (in my eyes) of all, is when another girl becomes the center of his life. When that baby comes into your life, you change. I thought I'd be working full-time happily, but I'm attached and the thought of being away from him 50 hours a week scares me.

Soren isn't mine and never will be. He was given to us, a body to nourish and a soul to teach and train. There will come a time when we no longer have a say in what he does, we no longer get priority and I have to be okay with that.

My heart is all in, and before I know it, it will have to loosen its hold. Until then I will enjoy the journey!

Cloth Diapering


We cloth diaper. I know, I know, it's the "hippy" thing to do. Why do we do it?

1 - There were at least two blow out diapers a week in disposables. Inevitably, it would happen on a Sunday right before I put him in the nursery, and it would get on his clothes and mine.

2 - The cost. It seems so expensive at first, but cost compare. Up front you put in some money, but in the end you save so much. With Soren we'll save about $500, and if we have another child, $1000 more.

3 - I will admit that the green factor had a big pull for me. Did you know it takes 300 years for disposables to begin to break down? That means any disposable ever made hasn't started breaking down. I had a little bit of guilt every day that I was using 10 diapers. Let me add that I don't look down on those using disposables, the green thing was just my own internal struggle.

We use a stash of 11 diapers. We use one brand - bumGenius - so we don't have to match inserts to the waterproof cover. We wash daily, because we don't like to have any smell linger and the whole process is much easier than all of the info online made it seem!

I tell any friend who is about to have a baby to consider it, and I have had a couple who made the switch and are so happy they did!

THESE Are Quilts


I have never been one for the typical baby blankets with monkeys or cars on them. And quilts never seemed to fit into my modern graphical aesthetic. But these. These I'd put all over my house!

Find these at b/perrino on Etsy.
 

On A New Role


The times after marriage and before pregnancy I often wondered how motherhood would change me.  There were times of panic when I thought I would lose myself in mom jeans and t-shirts that I was forced to wear, because my body didn't maintain it's shape. I was concerned that my new role as "mom" came with expectations of looking a certain way...more tame.

I am a graphic designer. Being a graphic designer doesn't mean you have a particular style, but once I discovered my love for design, I discovered where my fashion preferences lived. I like fun patterns, and loud colors. I wear a lot of skinny jeans, mostly because they are the only pants that look good short, but I admit I love them. If I can refer to a shirt by a name like "puppy shirt" or "tiger dress" to Daniel and he understands completely, then it's probably a good fit in my wardrobe.

I was worried that teal hair, purple eye shadow, and tattoos would be cause for judgment in my parenting ability, but then, I didn't have real world examples of moms like this.

What I have discovered is that Soren has helped me to be more myself. I can project my "fashion sense" on him as long as he doesn't care what he wears. If I can care for another human being, then I shouldn't be afraid of what people will say about a nose ring. Now I have the perfect excuse to go to petting zoos, and play in water fixtures. And most of all, I realized that I shouldn't be so worried about how people perceive me.

My Vast Knowledge After 6 Months



This kid cracks me up. He makes the best faces.

6 months. I have been waking up with, feeding, kissing and loving this boy for over 6 months now. Let me tell you that I have learned a lot about parenting and myself.

In these early days of Soren's life I have learned that you do whatever makes you the best mom you can be. Since I became pregnant, I have seen "scientific" proof that bed sharing will spoil a child and they will dependent on you for the rest of their lives. I have seen "scientific" proof that allowing a 6 month old to cry it out will psychologically ruin them and they will be insecure for the rest of their lives. The same high stakes studies are done with breast feeding, baby wearing, diapering, and anything you can think of. What do you do then? How do you decide and be the best mom? Tell yourself...

"It's alright". Loving your child, feeding them, comforting them - that's important and you decide how you do that best.

It is so hard not to judge other moms based off what has worked for you and your family; everyday that someone chooses something that I feel is extreme, I tell myself it doesn't matter. They love their baby.

I have a total of 6 months of experience. Nothing really. I don't think I have the answers, I have just learned to breathe easy and trust myself.

Now, talk to me when he is 13...that will probably be a different conversation.


Current Projects


This year I've been trying to work on more projects, committing more time to creating. One is a year long endeavor: a photo a day of Soren. January 1 and 2 didn't go so well, we completely forgot, but since those days, I've remembered to take a picture of him. It seems like he's getting the hang of it, because he starts smiling when I put him on the rug by the window.


Then I've been working on this Doctor Who Illustration. I recently got into Doctor Who and loved it. I might be a little obsessed. I love Matt Smith as the Doctor. I know so many favor David Tennant, but Matt Smith is just so quirky and is right in line with my sense of humor.

Tangent. Tangent. My illustration is farther along from when this photo is taken, but I don't feel like it's complete.

I also am going to try to illustrate a scene from each of my crazy dreams. If you have known me for a long period of time, you may have heard one of my ridiculous dreams, and I just felt that I should have an illustrated record of them. I haven't gotten very far with those, so I don't have much to show, but I hope to be able to show them soon!


It's a (2 month old) boy!





This is what I've been up to in my absence. This little guy. He'll be two months old on Tuesday, and he has been such a delight! Everything about him has been so easy so far, and we are definitely spoiled.  I cannot say that I feel like a "mom," but I have enjoyed snuggling with him and winning his smiles.
Samson is pretty curious about him and tries to steal kisses when we're not looking (and when we are). I cannot wait for them to play together.
Daniel has been amazing, too. Those first couple of weeks when I was recovering, he made sure that everyone had just what they needed. He is starting a collection of frisbees, fox tails and nerf guns to play with Soren when he is able. I know he is excited for that time, and I'm excited to watch them play.


Our Big News


7 months pregnant. Yes. We have waited a long time to put it online, but with only a couple of months left and the bump being a bit more obvious, we decided it was time. Our wee Wiese is due in the first days of October.

We are a mixture of excitement and nerves; for a long time the pregnancy was surreal (I didn't really start showing until a month and a half ago), but now that this baby will be here in 9 weeks or so, we're nervous.

The morning of the anatomy ultrasound we decided to find out if we were having a girl or a boy, with the intention of keeping that to ourselves until baby showers. Now our family knows, and with that friends in San Antonio, but we still have a couple of showers in Houston.


So, in two months we go from a family of three (we count Samson), to a family of four!