Tuesday, May 13, 2014

I Didn't Plan To...

have a second child. For months we said we were so content with our little boy, and we still are. We love that our attention is not divided, we love watching him. And, quite honestly, we love the sleep we get. But God...

Last May, he started telling me that I should not make definite statements about the number of children I'm having. Last September, I heard Him asking me to obey Him and have another child. I was afraid to say out loud what I was hearing, because I didn't have baby fever, I was truly and honestly content with my life. But God, He was asking me to obey despite what I thought, and I said ok, and told my husband. Three months later I was pregnant.

Why was I willing to say yes? Because I also didn't plan to be a stay-at-home-mom, and He forced that to happen. I could not be happier being at home, being a student of my child, and investing time into him.

So now, I don't make 5-year plans. I have dreams that may become reality some day. If you asked how many children I'm having I would tell you that I know we will have 2. If I end up pregnant again, I will tell you a new number. In a world that plans out entire lives, I am at peace knowing that I don't know what's going to happen.

"...but God..." is my life motto right now.

Months have passed since I've written anything on this blog. Pregnancy has wiped me out! If I would have known that my first pregnancy was so easy, I would have tried to enjoy it. Only two weeks ago have I been feeling well rested and more energetic. That was 19 weeks of being exhausted. 7 weeks of being sickened by food and still, at 21 weeks, having an aversion to chicken...our staple meat. But I'm grateful for having a body that can grow a human, that is currently working on refining all the systems that are in place for this little girl. I'm thankful to watch my little boy learn and become more him. I'm thankful for a husband who says it's okay that I can't cook all the time, and that the house is dirtier than it used to be.

My life is a dream.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Wiese ABCs

I meant to finish the monthly sets of photo a day's but got distracted by lots of projects and sleeping. I will resume them sometime soon. In the meantime, I give you the:

About a year ago I had the idea to make Soren an alphabet book with things that were talked about and seen around our house. I felt like he could relate letters better to things in our house, but mostly I wanted to draw him a book of Daniel's and my favorite things!

Some letters were quite difficult and I felt like they could have had a better noun, but I would have been "working" on this book for way too long.

I cut out the pages, painted the letters than illustrated with a mixture of marker and tshirt paint for its thicker quality. It is bound with leather stitches.

*Matt Smith is this household's Doctor.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

March 2013

March. He went to his first wedding and celebrated his first Easter. You can also view January and February.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

February 2013

February 2013 of Soren's photo-a-day. You can also view January.

^ That silly little face. These picture made him look like he was happy all of the time! Those are the parts I will choose to remember!

Monday, December 30, 2013

January 2013

Tomorrow marks my last day...that's right, last...of a photo a day of Soren. I successfully took a photo everyday...surprising myself more than anyone else. I don't stick with long term projects. I'm excited and have been working on a book all year. Tomorrow I will edit and place the last 2 weeks of photos.

So, to celebrate the completion, and so everyone else can see how much Soren has changed, I am going to upload each months photos one post at a time. Enjoy!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Golden Hour

We happened to be on a walk during golden hour and took turns taking some photos. These were some favorites.

Watching this boy learn new things is so amazing! I can't imagine having to learn all that he is in such a short time!

Monday, December 9, 2013

Love Beyond My Income

"Crushing financial burden"

Those are the words someone used to describe having children. It was a reason for not having children. Don't get me wrong, if you do not feel like you are called to have children, don't have them, I can support that. But these words have haunted me.

I'm sad that there are people who see a mother or father caring for their child and think "but $$$." It's easy to get caught up in how much money we have, and how we're already 27 and only have $2000 in our 401k. But my love for Soren can not be matched in money. Love just isn't monetary. Parenthood is difficult, but finances are the least scary thing of all that is coming up in my years raising Soren.

Loving him is more important than buying myself the best fitting pair of jeans (or even jeans long enough), or finally switching out my college car (boy oh boy would i love to have something other than a Chevy Cavalier). Loving him doesn't mean I have to pay for 5 activities a week for him, or paying for a college education. It might mean he has to be public schooled, and ride the bus.

Loving my child is worth giving up a lot.